Ridiculous fat girl
22/9/19 Today I been to Annexe to study. Thanks to Ben's encouragement, I pushed myself to study, but just little revision. I felt like something is missing, I felt empty... Binge eating > fat > sad > lack of motivation. 2 pieces chicken, 1 share of noodle, 3 donuts, 2 drinks. Why do you want to add anymore to yourself. I feel stupid. Can I restart it all? Don't you want to stay in shape like other girls at your age? Why are you so foolish? I must not let myself to continue like this. If I want to grow old with him, I must change. Start from me, then I can motivate him. I can do it, he can do it! WE CAN DO IT!